What makes me happy

Last night I started thinking about what makes me happy in life. All of the things I own or want to own crossed my mind and while they did make me happy it was a fleeting happiness that only lasted during the time I was using them or had/will obtain them. All of my family makes me happy as well as my friends, all of who I miss dearly.

My love and I were sitting at The Habit to grab some food before watching a movie and we shared a sundae. The last time I had a sundae was when I was a kid but it brought me back to the times when my family would go to the movies, my mom, my sister and I. I made the comment that because we had a sundae we couldn’t have bon-bon’s. She looked confused and I didn’t know this but what I refer to as bon-bons she refers to as dibs so I had to explain for a moment what I meant. I told her about all the times when my family would go to the movies and how every time my sister would have bon-bons. We have grown up so much since those days and become our own persons but she is my little sister.

Right now, with where I am and what I have, what makes me happy is my love, nothing else in the world can stop me from being happy. All of my worries or cares about work or school or the world disappear when I see her smile. If I was a rich man she would humble me and teach me to spend less even though money wouldn’t be an issue and if I were poor she would teach me how to make the most of everything we have while showing me how wonderful our lives are. Nothing in our lives is as bad as we make it out to be, everything that happens does so because it is part of life; all of the good and all of the bad. With her, however, the only thing that gets to me is the question if I am doing everything I can to make her happy and give her a wonderful life. If I were to ask her I know she would tell me to stop wondering that because she is happy and I’m giving her all she needs yet I’ll always feel like there is more I could do.

She is the most wonderful woman I know and she inspires me to be more than I know I am.

Stressful

I have been way to busy to even think about posting lately and it is all largely thanks to the combination of my school and work. Since it’s the holiday season our hours at work are picking up, which is good, but throw school into the mix and my free time dwindles away. School has been no picnic either. So, 95% of the class bombed the midterm so we all had the opportunity to make it up, myself included. Because of that we are about a week behind schedule so that puts a lot of pressure on all of us because next week is our final week. Between last class and next week we all have to cram about two weeks worth of information in so we can be ready for the final.

I am excited because tonight at work we are doing a midnight launch for the Xbox One and having tournaments playing Killer Instinct. Plus, Sacramento King’s point guard Isaiah Thomas Jr. will be there for the release, awesome!

Next school quarter is up in the air since I am enrolled in the wrong classes right now, which is throwing off my work schedule big time so I know I’m just causing more stress for my manager and I feel bad for it. I know everything will work out but right now I just need a relaxer of some sort, perhaps a massage or trip or concert, something to help ease my mind from all the craziness that is going on right now.

Mental Block

I’m trying to come up with a list of all the things needed to be discussed about the wedding and I was doing so well coming up with topics but I’ve somehow come to a block. Nothing else is coming to me and it sucks so I’m looking at this website that was suggested to me but most of what they have listed I already wrote down. I might be thinking too much about it.

On the plus side, I’ve come up with a list of people to invite but I should really think if they will show or not so my list isn’t entirely large, which it isn’t, it’s medium. I’m very anxious about everything.

My pal Jobad needs to be here so we can talk about it and get my mind off it too.